Yeah, I wrote a post on Tuesday, but it was one of those "I'm still alive, and really frustrated" things...
I'm on the horns of a dilemma...
There's a couple of things I really want to write, but also don't want to write... and they're not letting anything else come out until I finally figure out what I'm going to write... or decide not to write at all.
The first thing is about California and politics. The second is about the upcoming election, and our "choice" of candidates.
Those are fairly predictable topics for this moment. What I'm going to write isn't going to be predictable, and will probably piss people off...
On the other hand, I'm not sure I even want to get into it.
I'm so worn out on politics right now... hell, I have been since what, 2008?
When was it that I wrote about being tired of making the same arguments over and over again, and already having said it all?
The other thing though...
The other thing is what's really freezing me up.
My brother died a year ago this last Monday...
Sunday, January 9th, 2011, my not quite 32 old brother died; of a combination of a severely weakened immune system due to cancer, an untreated septic infection, and the effects of both prescription and illicit drugs.
I really don't know what to write about that.
I really don't know HOW to write about that.
I NEED to say something, and I can't; and I can't seem to say anything else until I do.
... and I... just... can't.